What's the Point?

I kinda don't want to live anymore, don't get me wrong I'm not saying I'm suicidal or anything, at least not anymore. But very frequently do I think, "What's the point?". I know that I should probably see my therapist, but I feel like I can't talk, like physically. He's probably not sure either I reckon. I just want an answer, what is the point of any of this. Like, to reproduce? Surely if that was the only purpose to life we wouldn't feel any of these things. I guess my purpose is pleasing my parents, that's all. I'm going to be honest with you, I don't want to go back to school. I don't know why, maybe its fear that I will no longer succeed, maybe its that I'm over programming and don't want to do it anymore, or maybe its the fact that I worked as a developer very briefly and saw the bureaucracy of it all and it disgusted me. But I don't want to drop out because the other side of the coin is scarier than I would like to admit. I don't know what I'll do besides working as a developer what kind of life I will lead. I feel stuck between my parents' expectations and uncertainty.